The Proverbial Jelly Fish

And I'm back to feeling sick
I feel so done
so empty
or not full.

how ever you put it
I'm feeling it
I am the proverbial
washed up jellyfish
on the shore of what's to come

I guess what's really scary
is to know
that no matter what i do
I won't be happy

I think the reason why it's been so long
since I had written
is because I had forgotten
that happy is just out of my reach

always will
always has
and I really
just need to get used to it

otherwise
I really just don't know
how I can possibly
cope

so I'll drink to the thought
of a happiness reached
a warning elapsed
and a world so unreal
that even in my dreams it doesn't exist